mundane echo

tired. must. sleep.

We have too much stuff.  At this point I’ve stopped sorting and am just putting things in boxes. I want to be done.

back.to.work.

Sleeping is a dream.   Bliss.  Our current routine is bedtime between 7:30pm and 8:00pm.  She sleeps until 5:00am and then I pull her into bed with us, nurse her, and she goes back to sleep for an hour or two.  Naps are still – eh.  But she sleeps when she’s tired, and is in good humor otherwise, so I’m ok with that.

Now that she’s done with the night feedings and pacifier, our recent undertaking is making bedtime positive.  No tears.  I wasn’t sure it was possible because she fusses so much with me before bed.  But one evening Mark had her and got her to bed tear-less.  We chatted about what he did and why we thought it worked.  So the night before last, he walked with her for a bit.  Loving on her and chatting to her.  Then passed her to me and I did the same thing.  What was awesome?  She laid her head on my shoulder and then turned and looked at her crib.  Hum… I wonder if that means she’s ready for bed.  I asked her and then laid her down.  She didn’t fuss!  I stayed with her for a few minutes, rubbing her back and speaking softly.  Then kissed her and left.

She was asleep shortly and without tears.

This evening we broke from routine.  We went to the Scottish Games and then dinner.  Not getting home until 9:00pm.  While changing her for bed she fussed once for a few seconds, then just watched me in a half sleepy state.  Afterwards I held her and walked with her for a minute before she looked at her crib again.  So I laid her down, stayed with her for a minute, kissed her and then left.  Again… no tears!

I am so excited!  I hated the idea that bedtime was something she got upset about.  However, if we can keep this going, it’s going to be something positive for her… and that’s wonderful.

I feel like I’ve discovered some amazing secret and want to share it with everyone.  It’s just *that* good.

In other news, I love my family.  Family isn’t always blood, as I’m sure you know.  It’s the people who you’ve grown up with, the people you allow into that close circle of your heart.  The people who you choose, and who have chosen you.   Well, today I got to spend time with one branch of my family and I enjoyed hanging out with them more than I ever have.  I think part of it comes from my own blossoming understanding of what family is and it’s importance.  That, and it was just a good day.  I miss them and was so blessed to hang out with them today.

Another one of my family members has re-entered my life.  He’s one of those guys who has come and gone from my life for the past 15 years.  On his current road to recovery and self discovery, he’s returned to the bay area.  I’m joyous for this, for many different reasons.  He’s changed in some ways which make me feel the seporation between us.  In other ways, I am finding bridges where seperations were.  I can’t wait to get to know who he is now and where he is going.  To be there and build a new level of our relationship.

It’s been a good day.