eternal

Gosh. A lot to think about.

At church last week (I think) they talked about the spiritual junk food that we satisfy ourselves with. Hum.

When we walk into the house hungry, we frequently go for the chips, soda… whatever is quick and easy to satisfy our hunger. The problem with that is that when the real meal comes around, we aren’t hungry anymore and don’t get to appreciate something that actually tastes good and provides proper nutrition.

Our spiritual lives are the same way. We (I) frequently put junk food in front of God in order to satisfy a need. That junk food could be friends, to fill a void or emotional need. It could be “spirituality” over an endurance to chase after God’s heart. There’s a number of things… and when I examine them in my life, I realize how they are weakening me in my faith and my walk. Sometimes I just want an easy fix – a neon sign – and God doesn’t seem to work that way. Does it mean that desire for neon is bad? Do I need to change? Or perhaps make sure there’s fruit on hand instead of cheese its.

Hum.

Additionally, this morning’s devotional talked about how we already have eternal life. I’ve heard this before, but it stuck with me. I will not die. There isn’t an end in sight… only a transition… and gosh, life is full of those. I, as a follower of Christ, already have, and am living, an eternal life. It’s not something that will happen in x number of years. It’s not something different than what I have now. I am eternal – living right now.

That’s pretty intense.

 

today

This morning I met Chris. Chris was standing on the corner with a sign “Will work for food”. For good measure, it had a little Jesus fish. It is difficult for me not to be callous when I see that. I think that the Jesus thing is just to solicit a response – one that involves food or money. I had to check myself. People matter. Period. I had the joy of chatting with him in the parking lot and knowing he’ll have a few good meals.And it was good.Next on huge things for this morning – I wrote a letter to my Aunt. It was addressed to Aunt & Uncle, but really – it was to her. I must have tossed half of my writing tablet in attempts to straighten my thoughts and figure out what to say. Finally – I just wrote and let it be what it was.And it was good.

As for the rest of the day? In celebration of Joel’s birthday, we are lunching at Val’s and will all be suffering heart failure due to clogged arteries. I will not be eating much there – so perhaps I’ll live.

I’m hoping to head into SFO later today. Mark’s family is Irish. Today is the St Patty’s parade in the City. There will be celebration afterwards.

It’s 12:50pm and all’s well.

 

choosing what is excellent

I can not express how good it is to be out of BCI. I had a dream last night where SH & TH were discussing some “situation” that was going on. I told them how happy I didn’t have to deal with that crap anymore. It was lovely.

Mark C. was speaking in Kollao a while back about choosing what is excellent. It is something that has stuck with me since I heard it and I’ve been trying to do just that. Many times we are faced with many good choices or opportunities. Out of them, we must choose one. So we need to choose whichever is most excellent and drop the rest.

Apparently this has stuck with Mark as well. He brought it up this morning and expressed a desire to start implementing that philosophy in his life. This makes me happy. It’ll be nice to work together with this concept, choosing what is excellent for each of us and for us a couple.

I had a dream last night. With it came a strong urging to withdraw from an event. The more I think about it, the more I know it’s the right thing to do. It’s the craziest thing. I have no qualms about it. I do have a peace that is settling into my heart. Hum. What are You doing?